You didn’t cheat, or lie, or treat me with malice, and maybe you will never understand why that is the very reason that this pain is deeper in its own way. You shared things I told you, and that I showed you in confidence, that I have never shared with anyone…with her. It’s a slow burn of a flickering flame and I’m just close enough to feel the heat from the damage you left behind. But my heart is cracked, and the rain trickles in through each crevice like salt in a wound stinging with each moment that passes, and I can only catch my breath long enough to stay alive before being pulled back under by your wild tides.
You didn’t break me I have no pieces to pick up. You were a quiet storm I never saw coming.
The dust settles, people find the broken pieces of them selves scattered around and start to rebuild - because although you are broken, you know what needs to be done to move on, to survive after the destruction.īut you - you weren’t a tornado. When a tornado hits, scattering the debris of lies and betrayal across the now barren landscape that is your heart, it is also accompanied by a certain calm that can only be brought on by havoc. I always thought it was the big, tragic, earth shattering heartbreaks that would steal your last breath and crumble your world - but I was wrong. Somehow, without knowing when that exact moment had taken place - you had become that person for me. But you became that person, the one I whispered secrets to at 4 am, who I talked to every morning, and every night, just to see hear your voice change from the morning hush to your night time rasp, the one who congratulated me on my wins and comforted me on my losses and always knew the right thing to say. I shared parts of my soul with you I tend to keep hidden and tucked away out of fear that someone might break them, they might misplace them and leave a part of me somewhere I never wanted to be. Suddenly, overnight, you had manifested in to this living, breathing thing that was now a part of my life, a part of my every day.
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